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Memory Sharing!

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Suicide is a topic rarely talked about in the African American community.

Here is my story. When I was 14 years old, I was living with a friend of mine and her family.  I had a lot of freedom but I was unhappy.  I was very unhappy.

I began drinking Cisco, trying to escape my pain. The alcohol wasn’t working. I no longer wanted to live. I began to have thoughts about suicide, thinking about jumping in front of cars. I decided against it because I had been hit by a car before and that wasn’t a good feeling. I then thought about stabbing myself but I didn’t want to bleed all over the place. I wanted my death to be peaceful.  One night when everyone in the house was asleep, I went into the bathroom, opened the medicine cabinet, and pulled out a bottle of pills. The bottle had not been opened, so when I opened the bottle, I only took half. I didn’t want to take the whole bottle for fear of getting in trouble, just in case I didn’t die. I went into the kitchen, got a glass of water, and took the pills.

I was mentally prepared to die.

I just wanted the pain to go away.

I climbed back into bed and as my eye lids got heavy, I asked God to forgive me. Soon after, I fell asleep.

The next morning, I opened my eyes, looked around the room, realizing that I was still alive. I didn’t feel groggy or sick, so I got out of bed, and ran into the bathroom. I opened up the medicine cabinet and grabbed the bottle of pills.

I read the bottle and guess what it said?

MIDOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven’t had cramps since!

The thing I learned from this is that you cannot do anything without God. I thank Him for keeping me here to do His will. I want people that are going through the struggle to know that they are not alone. I’m here if you need to vent. Feel free to send me an email because sometimes we just need someone to listen.

I ASK ALL OF YOU TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER AND TO BE A SHOULDER TO SOMEONE.

GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I!

By: Tiffani McClain
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